The worst year in my life.
Family’s health, personal health and work.
I enjoy walking and suddenly, I have to cut down on walking. Every step on the stairs I take is fearful and painful.
First time in my life I went for Physiotherapy. I enjoy the quiet time doing the heat/ice therapy. But, won’t be going again as it was tough rushing to work. Also, took up a chunk of the medical bill.
Nevertheless, will continue my daily stretch at home.
Went for Skillfuture course for some beginner lesson.
Both parents’ health are deteriorating. Immobility. 😥
I seriously do not know how to cope with the deadlines at work. Feeling very dejected.
Raining the whole day on 31 Dec 17.
May the toxic of 2017 be washed away in the rain.
If there is really a God,
-please give me the strength to get through the helpless feeling of work. I just do not know how to start over the zooming deadlines.
-let my legs be healthy again. I love walking, it let me enjoy my solitude, keep me fit and let me de-stress from work problems, now I have to take painkillers.
-don’t let my parents suffer. They went through so much hardship in life, yet they continue to suffer with deteriorating health.
Twitter gave us 280 characters and famous writers such as JK Rowling & Stephen King do not like it. The irony that they wrote thick books with much more than 280 characters. I rather people wrote all their message in 1 tweet rather than scrolling through part 1, 2 & 3 on the same matter. I would have an easier time tweeting during those time that I tweet a lot.
MRT train delayed 3 time out of 5 weekdays. They are in operation for 30 years & all their parts are not being maintained well. Really disgusted with the management which pushed all the blame to the staff.
My legs are just like the old & beaten MRT. Painful. Missed those days that I can walk, run & climb.
Getting tired very easily. No energy to stay back to complete my work. The thought of work gives me anxiety.
Niantic, the Pokemon Go’s developer is coming up with Harry Potter’s augmented reality game. Not sure how to feel about it. One year ago, I will be elated. Now, knowing that Niantic treats Asia sans Japan as second class, we will be getting inferior game than USA/Europe. Also, I can’t walk as much as I want. On the other hand, interested to know how they are going to implement marauder map into the game.
Speaking of Pokemon Go, I am still not getting the Ex Raid pass for Mewtwo. Sort of losing interest in the game. The gym system sucks.
Watched Stranger Things 2. Love the nostalgia. Really wishing Eleven would interact with the 4 boys more. Will is such an unlucky child.
Finally watched 新扎師兄，which was a 1984 show. While Stranger things is a current show with its background set 30 years ago, 新扎師兄 was filmed more than 30 years ago. Hence the nostalgia is even stronger ~ there was a time that people has to use pager or wait for phone calls at home.
Not a good year for my family’s health & work. Getting old sucks.
Have a very strange dream.
I was at someone’s house celebrating someone’s birthday. Can’t remember whose birthday.
After that, decided to go to school together with my friends (can’t recall who) but went back home with the schoolbags to reduce the load of the bag.
I told a schoolmate that the two trees outside my window fell on different days.
Reach my house, a very old school flat . My apartment was at level 23. I have to climb a vertical ladder to reach my house. Two people were blocking my way and I have to ask them to not block the way. After that, I realised I was at the wrong floor because I pressed the button of the lift to level 33.
I have put aside my schoolbag at one corner to climb the vertical ladder. (Even in my dream, I knew this defeated the purpose of coming home.) Also during the climb, I was wondering how I climbed the ladder a few weeks ago when in real life, i have to walk with walking stick because of severe knee pain.
I took the lift again in order to go to level 23, without taking my bag. There were many people in the lift. And the lift went to beyond 100th floor. I was quite mad because the lift have to go back to many floors before reaching level 23.
And then, it got worse. The lift suddenly have no access to level 23 and went all the way to ground floor.
When the lift open, it was nighttime and I have no idea where I was. I was worried that my friends were waiting for me and also worried that someone would steal my school bag, which have my phone, money, etc.
Trying to go back to my house, I walked panicky looking for familiar places. Somehow, I found a French diner, which reminded me of the restaurant that I went with my friends in Paris a few years back in real life. But yet the surrounding looks more like Taiwan.
While trying to go back to the right place, I wake up.
It wasn’t a dream within a dream ala inception. At no point during the dream I knew I was dreaming. All the feelings and emotions were real. Even in my dream, I was helpless and feeling unhappy because nothing went right.
The only thing great about the dream was my knee wasn’t hurting.
Youth is gone. Pain is here.
I just want the pain to go away.
I used to jog but has gradually stopped this year because every time I jog, my knee started feeling pain.
So I walk everyday as my only form of exercise. However, my right kneecap that has niggling pains for many years, finally violently protested. I was limping with an umbrella as a crutch. Have to rely on muscle relaxer to release the pain.
Also, need to rest my legs. I can’t walk too much, can’t go Pokémon hunting. For two days, I lied on my bed and binged watch HK TV dramas nonstop.
Despite the leg problem, I do enjoy able to laze around without guilt, not going to work and entertaining myself with mindless TVs.
My knee is still painful. I used to walk to all the neighbourhood for Pokémon raid, now I can only go to the nearest Pokemon gym for raid or forfeit the daily raid pass.
Hope to be able to walk normally again. I still wish to enjoy holidays, zenning out while walking away my problems and keeping myself fit.