病了。

本來想硬撐地把工做完,但一封電郵令我明白,不值得。

何必為了死線而死。

休息,是為了能夠繼續吃喝玩樂。

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Chaos Theory

Probably the first time I read about chaos theory was from Michael Crichton’s novel. I was very impressed then because no matter how the butterfly flaps it’s wings, life still go on and it doesn’t affect me.

WRONG. I try to ignore everything about the current USA president and all the international turmoil that he brings. I am selfish, I just don’t care over things that is beyond my control. I am not American and I didn’t choose that 人渣 to be president.

However, whenever that rascal points his finger over whichever country that he is mad at the moment, the whole world has to follow where his tiny finger points. Because of him, we have more form to ask customers to declare that they have no dealing with certain countries which offended that tiny small man.

I am getting more and more turn off by USA style of democracy. Go around telling other countries about human right, but yet allow anybody to buy a gun, a weapon designs to kill. And we have to be emphatic of mental health problem whenever white boys went around mass killing. In the meantime, three black men were handcuffed because they did not order anything in Starbucks.

I am neither rightist, leftist, conservative, liberal and those branding. I am just an individual who is sick that a tiny man in a superpower affecting my working life so much.

My rant after sick from overwork from too many deadlines because of international events.

Social justice warrior and grammar nazi, you are not welcome.

Alone but not lonely

Often alone, but seldom lonely.

I am loneliest when I am in a crowd.

March

Got three Mewtwo, ✌️.

Started taking Recogen, and legs seemed to get slightly better.

Enjoying greenery again after I couldn’t jog or walk long distance. Taking buses all over town for Pokémon raid or just escaping from the MRT when I don’t have to commute to work.

Read a few books on calming down.

Every morning, I took a few deep breaths at the fitness corner near my house, before i face the real world.

立春

今天就呆在家裡看愛.回家。好喜歡這部劇,輕鬆又不離地。

吃了麥當當的快樂餐,只為了花生漫畫的玩具。

喝了杯咖啡和免費蛋糕。

在圖書管借了兩本漫畫。

買了個籃子來裝雜物。

撘巴士捉精靈。

轉了錢進戶口。

舉重。

慶幸今天不是工作天。

這是今天的日常與小確幸。

After my last post

I cleaned my bedroom.

Sort my mails.

Bought groceries.

Cut my nails.

Cleaned my shoes.

Walked around my neighbourhood.

Now I am exhausted. My legs are hurting again. Missed those days when my legs are healthy.

Weekends

Every weekend,

I want to wake up after 9 am, but nowadays I usually awake at around 7am and start surfing net. Then I felt that I didn’t sleep well by 9 am.

I want to read book, but seldom pick up the book to read.

I want to binge watch shows, but I am so lazy I don’t even want to click on it.

I want to clean my room but I keep procrastinating about it.

I want to stretch more, but the most common pose I do is corpse pose.

I want to eat healthily but I end up eating titbits and junk food.

I want to explore more places but I settle for familiar shopping mall.

Then, I tell myself to do something different the next weekend.

At this moment on a Sunday afternoon, I am neither stretching, reading, cleaning but lying on my bed not sleeping….